1. My name is Kaylee Anne Johnson
2. I am named after my great grandma, Anna and my mom Jessica Ann.
3. I want one of my daughters to have Anne as a middle name
4. I currently live in North Dakota
5. I have moved 7 times and am moving back to Washington in July
6. I’m super excited for the REASON I am moving (to be with the man of my dreams)
7. I don’t make friends with girls very easy but I’m working on it (its getting better!)
8. My relationship with the Lord is the biggest priority in my life.
9. I love growth and discovery and won’t ever settle for ‘good enough’
10. I get a thrill from exceeding expectations and raising the bar
11. I am extremely passionate about purity and restoration.
12. I want to help heal every broken hearted girl
13. I absolutely LOVE high heels…they make me feel lovely
14. I also love cowboy boots…they make me feel useful
15. I really like to read, however I rarely make the time to do so
16. Homemade bread is my comfort food.
17. When I was little Mom used to have tea parties with Kort and I on rainy days. I want to do that with my daughters
18. I am obsessed with polka dots…I wear them a lot
19. I feel most comfortable in smaller groups and prefer one-on-one conversations
20. I own a horse, her name is Italy
21. I have a dog, her name is Bailey…
22. I moved out of my parents house when I was 17.
23. I had their blessing, I wasn’t kicked out J
24. I love cleaning house.
25. I don’t like cleaning the bathroom
26. I like to oil my wood floor on my hands and knees, listening to music…really loud
27. I sleep with my window open and a fan on…during every season
28. Clean sheets=best feeling in the world
29. I am 5′5″
30. I have brown eyes and my right eye has a dark spot in it.
31. I’m legally blind…I have no peripheral vision.
32. I really don’t like feet…unless they are baby feet.
33. I love washing dishes while having a good conversation with someone
34. I was raised on a farm an absolutely loved it.
35. I never want to own a dairy farm.
36. I have always wanted to own a restaurant
37. I often feel bad for waitress’ and leave really big tips
38. When I’m a passenger in a car I push down with my right foot whenever the drivers steps on the break…
39. I can’t stand silence…If people aren’t talking, I need to have noise or music going on in the background (which is the main reason I sleep with a fan on)
40. I adore my family, even all of the dysfunctional parts…
41. I was the North Dakota State Dairy Princess in 2005-2006
42. I spoke to 300,000 people during my one year reign (that is half of the state’s population)
43. I love taking walks in the evenings
44. My favorite book is Dare to Desire by John Eldridge. I have read it 6 times
45. I have a hard time expressing excitement sometimes…I’m too mellow.
46. I cry at weird, random times.
47. However, I cry in almost any movie where someone’s spouse or child dies. (The first movie I cried in was John Q)
48. I want to own a garden someday.
49. I want to teach my daughters how to sew
50. I want to teach both my daughters and my sons to cook.
51. I want to own a small vineyard someday
52. I am not athletically talented whatsoever…but I love watching and taking pictures of sports.
53. Especially rodeo
54. I was a soccer ref for 3 years
55. I’m extremely careful with my hair and won’t try anything crazy.
56. My favorite flowers are black magic roses…really dark red ones
57. I've been given flowers more since I have been courting than I have my whole life.
58. I like to put my towels in the dryer before I take a shower
59. I make lists for everything.
60. I sometimes procrastinate
61. When I was little I wanted to be a teacher.
62. Besides spending time with people I love, taking pictures is my favorite thing to do.
63. I am infatuated with weddings. I have bought wedding magazines since I was little. Not to plan my own, just because I love what they are celebrating
64. My favorite smell is a newborn baby.
65. Nothing can touch my heart like watching a dad’s with their little girls.
66. I love dancing and what it has taught me.
65. I love twirling…
66. Ryan is my best friend…
67. I played piano, flute, and piccolo when I was younger…I don’t anymore
68. I have wanted my husband to play guitar ever since I was little.
69. One of my favorite childhood memories is taking long road trips to ‘farm search’ with my family. Kort and I still sing the stupid songs we made up on those trips.
70. I am extremely loyal to those I am close with
71. I love reading people, discovering their passions, and what makes them tick
72. I really like dressing up.
73. I’m somewhat of a homebody. I have never had a desire to travel the world.
74. I do look forward to traveling with Ry, though.
75. I adore cooking with music playing the background.
76. I wanted to go to massage school just so that I had that skill…
77. I could live off of fresh vegetables and fruit in the summer
78. Chips and salsa are my favorite snack
79. I absolutely hate horror movies. They make me mad, they make me sick.
80. I have always wondered what I would look like with green eyes…
81. Fire intrigues me…I could sit and watch a camp fire or fireplace for hours and never get bored.
82. I absolutely love fireworks!
83. I like good quotes…
84. I like waking up early
85. I have always wanted an awesome front porch (or wrap around porch). So I could sit out and cuddle with my man with a cup of coffee in the morning and a beer or glass of wine at night. Mmm…
86. I love hosting people. I will always have a guest room in my house for just that
87. I am terrible with being spontaneous but I absolutely love it.
88. I want to have the same deep relationship with my kids as I have with my parents.
89. I am an extremely cautious person (especially with driving)
90. I am a terrible passenger, get scared really easy, and have to make a conscious effort to keep my mouth shut.
91. I have a tendency to be really hard on myself and give others too much slack.
92. I am so grateful for my friendships.
93. I really look forward to having family gatherings once all of my siblings are married with kids.
94. I want to be someone’s hero.
95. I want to encompass Proverbs 31.
96. I love to study and learn new things
97. I love rain and songs that have to do with rain.
98. I want to go on vacations with my husband and our friends (Morgan, get married so that we can go to the beach, ok?)
99. I want to change someone’s life…for the better.
100. I want to marry Ryan…
Friday, April 4, 2008
100 Things
Friday, March 14, 2008
Mmm mmm....
Ryan, you are MY favorite and you make me smile. I can't wait to see you in just a few days.Monday, February 25, 2008
The beginning of our story...
Oh wow, I have a lot to catch up on. I've been wanting to but have been a little distracted...
So the last post I wrote I was totally caught up in the goodness of God, I pretty much felt like my life couldn't get any better. Little did I know that 6 days later He would be laughing hysterically at me.
It was February 9th. I had worked the night before and decided to stay at my parents house that night. I woke up to little boy kisses and knew it was going to be a good day. I had a restless spirit, but in a good way. I was really excited for life and wanted to tackle as many things as possible. After I worked at the farm in the morning I spent the day helping Mom clean the house and playing with the little boys. Mom told me around noon that she and Dad were going to Bismarck for a date and wanted me to meet them for dinner so we could discuss life (I had told them just that day that I was wanting to move back home and they wanted to talk about it more). They left around 5:00 and I wasn't supposed to meet them until 8:00. So I called Morgan and started spilling out everything on my mind,
"Ok, so my parents want me to meet them for dinner but don't want me to drive with them, my hair worked perfectly, and my spirit is going crazy. Something is going on and I have no idea what! Tell me to calm down and that I'm freaking out over nothing!" So she kinda did and then asked,
"What are you wanting to happen? Do you think some guy is going to come ask to court you tonight?"
"Uh, I don't know what I'm expecting, but not that! First off, no one is even interested and so I'm not going to entertain that thought..." (but I was thinking about that)
Then Kortney calls me as I'm getting ready to leave and I explain the whole scenario to her and she goes, "That is so weird...maybe you have a secret admirer who's coming out to ask to court you!"
"That would be nice but no one likes me so that's not happening"
So I go the restaurant and sit and text Ryan who told me earlier that day that he was in Idaho for a Fire Dept. conference. He was telling me all about his roommate and so any thoughts I might of had about him coming out to ND were quickly put out.
My parents were late and when they got there they sat down and ordered quickly. After about 10 minutes of talking I look up and Mr. Ryan himself walked around the corner. I knew exactly why he was there and it scared me to death. I sat there with my hands over my mouth saying nothing but, "Oh God...Oh Jesus...Oh God...are you kidding me? Oh Jesus...are you for real? Oh God...Oh Jesus" by this time he was standing in front of me with the biggest smile and says, "Can I get a hug?" So I stand up and hug him forever until I said, "I need to sit down, I'm going to fall over..."
He then proceeds to tell me how the Lord had laid me on his heart and he has been in a lengthy process of getting the leadership's and my parents approval. "...and I have a question to ask you. I was wondering if you would be willing to go a journey of courtship with me that will hopefully end in marriage. You can think and pray about it, you don't have to answer me right away." I turned to my parents and said, "You know my heart, can I answer him now?? YES!!!!"
The rest of the evening my food sat untouched in front of me as I listened to his whole story, how he had been thinking and praying about this since August (before we even started talking), and all the events that led up to that night. I wish I could share the whole story but it would take forever...Before we left he gave me a gift, a stunning diamond necklace. It's amazing (I have wore it everyday since).
We drove home and I didn't really say anything all night. I couldn't. I was in such shock. It took the first couple days of him being here (he stayed for a week) to even grasp the thought that he even liked me. I started liking him back in November and only talked about it once with my parents. In that conversation I told them that I was interested in him but didn't think I was his type, that he wouldn't even consider me, and that I was just going to work through it and get over it. I didn't. Little did I realize that he was already in the process of talking to my parents. However, they didn't tell him that I like him. Back in November the Lord gave me the criteria for my husband and I gave it to my parents and said, "I want you guys to pick him for me. I trust your judgment and know that you will only pick the best. I want to be surprised and I don't want to know about it". So he flew out here not knowing what I was going to say! The amount of faith that took is huge...
We then spent the next week visiting with my family, setting up guidelines and boundaries, sharing our heart with each other, spending our first Valentines day together (!!), working together, and completely overwhelmed with the Lord's faithfulness. Each day He continued to leave us in awe. One of the coolest thing for me was when we shared our non-negotiables. We read them to each other and were shocked that each point was matched with the other and that many of them were the same.
After one week there we ventured to his home. I have never enjoyed traveling so much and we had SOOOO much fun! We arrived in the afternoon and spent the rest of the day with his family. It was great to see them and we learned to be patient with some of those who were trying to adjust to seeing us 'together'. (I'm still laughing...) Sunday was one of my best days. We had been hiding it from everyone but our fams and a few close friends for a week and it was the day EVERYBODY WOULD KNOW!!!! Ryan had thought to buy me a dress and shoes (that were PERFECT!!!!!! He has incredible taste :) so I felt gorgeous. I couldn't walk in with the family and waited the last minute to go upstairs because my huge smile would have been a dead giveaway. I was greeted by Todd and Morgan and pretty much spazed out a lot!!! Worship was awesome but way too long... Announcements were even longer ( I don't remember anything said). Finally I heard Uncle Kevin say, "Where's Kaylee at? Would you stand up?" Again, I didn't hear anything he said until he introduced Ryan and said, "Oh yeah...their courting!" Ry had left the house early so he could go buy me roses and he came over and escorted me back to sit with his family as his girl. Talk about an awesome feeling!!!
After church we talked to pretty much everyone in attendance then went to lunch with a group of people. So much fun. Then Ry and I went back to the church where he let me change my clothes and he, Rob, and I spent the rest of the afternoon together doing a bunch of special things that he had planned.
Monday we went and had breakfast with Eric and Lisa Trout and their awesome family. Then we went home and took Reigna on a date for a few hours. We dropped her off and went to the church to pick up Larissa and Todd for a Starbucks run. After that we met Cam for a movie then had dinner with his parents that night. It was a full, AWESOME day!
Tuesday was my last day there and a definite favorite. He told me to be ready by 8:00, to dress cute, but wouldn't tell me what we were doing. Morgan and Rob showed up at the house and the four of us went to Salish Lodge for an amazing breakfast. 
We walked around the place for a while, looked at the falls, and just enjoyed the perfect weather. After we dropped the other two off, Ry and I spent the rest of the day together having great conversation and totally enjoying each others company. That night we went out to dinner (had an AWESOME meal!), and then spent the rest of the evening with his family. Sleep was short as we had to leave the house at 3:30am to catch my flight. Needless to say, it was an emotional day and I absolutely hated getting on that plane.
It hasn't even been a week since I have been home but it seems like so much has happened. We are learning how to communicate our hearts through the phone which has been really neat, but I hate it at the same time. The Lord knows what we can handle though and we know its good to be apart for the time being. We have been blessed with people in our life that have gone through the same thing and can offer lots of advice or just sympathize with us. haha.
Eric and Lisa Trout will be disciplingus individually but also as a couple. I am SO thrilled about that! They have been a part of Ryan's process more than I have and so they know his heart. I have an expectancy that the Lord is going to bring about some amazing things through this.
I suppose I should wrap this up. I have lots and lots more stories but will wait for another time. We both want people involved in our process and realize that it's not just about 'us' so I will be keeping everyone updated. This is just the beginning of our story....
Sunday, February 3, 2008
I'm Gettin' RAINED On!!!!
Ever since this major paradigm shift I have felt so full. Not because much has changed, I'm simply acknowledging its presence now. Every kiss or "Shake 'n' bake!" from a brother, every phone call from my favorite person (Kortie, of course), every conversation with Dad or hug from Mom holds more value than I could have ever imagined. It's a strange feeling though, I'm so full it seems as if I couldn't take anymore 'goodness' yet, I still want more. I NEED more. That's what is so incredible about the love of God, it can't be contained or measured. It's indescribable and humbling.Monday, January 28, 2008
Give it Up Already...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
The Burning Heart
My heart has been burning lately. I have fallen on my face before my God pleading for His grace and guidance in my life on what to do and where to go and in turn His has set me ablaze.
When we surrender and learn to abide in Him there is a fire kindled in us. It is with each bad day, difficult circumstance, and hell around us that will blow in and put it out UNLESS we make the choice to reside in Him. When that happens that wind ushers in a consuming fire and the enemy has no ground. The victory has already been won, am I NOT going to let the adversary claim what is not his.
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name. YOU ARE MINE. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flam scorch you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.”- Isaiah 32:1-3
We are His and when we acknowledge and declare that, we cannot be defeated.
In that verse it talks about fire as a negative thing but I’m talking about fire in the sense of passion and desire for righteousness. I am realizing that with the fire comes vision and purpose. It gives me a reason ‘why’ and the strength to press through. He lights us up so that we don’t become discouraged or complacent. How often have you let your emotions overrun you? I know I’ve been guilty more than once! Many times its not because of sin necessarily but of ignorance of our human nature. That is why it is SO important to educate ourselves with the Law of God.
“If it be an emotion kindled by the Spirit of God and you do not let that emotion have its right issue in your life, it will react on a lower level. The higher the emotion is, the deeper the degradation will be, if it is not worked out on its proper level. If the Spirit of God has stirred you, make as many things inevitable as possible, let the consequences be what they will. We cannot stay on the mount of transfiguration, but we must obey the light we receive there, we must act it out. When God gives a vision, transact business on that line, not matter what it costs.”-Oswald Chambers
What kind of fire is consuming you? Are you surrendering to the Law of God or being attacked with the adversary’s tactics? Are you going to yield under pressure or have the tenacity to fight through and claim the victory that your Father has already won for you? It’s not something to be taken lightly; it’s a matter of life and death.
“We cannot kindle when we will
The fire which in the heart resides,
The spirit bloweth and is still,
In mysery our soul abides;
But tasks in hour of insight will’d
Can be through hours of gloom fulfill’d.”
Friday, January 4, 2008
Am I Lovely?
I started reading the book “Captivating” by John and Staci Eldridge this morning. (Thanks again, Bethany!) I have read his book “Wild at Heart” and even though it is intended for men, I read it from the woman’s perspective of “this is what to look for in a man”. Captivating covers much of the same material but dives so much deeper into the heart of a woman.
Growing up I wasn’t really a tomboy but I wasn't the prima ballerina either. I loved dressing up and looking nice but after a few hours couldn’t wait to get home, destroy the pantyhose I had been wearing, and put on some jeans. I have gone back and forth the last few years in the extremes of hardcore cowgirl to princess (literally, while I was dairy princess I pretty much ate up that whole persona). I think it really stemmed from trying to find my identity and been so easily swayed by whatever season of life I was in. I would say in the past year and a half I have learned to find my identity in Christ and now I can let HIM say who I am. I don’t have to fit into a mold of one character or another. I am simply a woman of diversity and regardless of where or who I am around, I am first and foremost a daughter of God. It does not matter if I’m wearing Carhartt’s helping a cow deliver a calf, or if I’m dressed in a business suit giving a speech. It doesn’t matter if I am sporting my Mossy Oak baseball cap and Tony Lamas (those are cowboy boots:)) pulling flank straps at a bull riding or if I’m wearing high heels and my ‘skinny jeans’ as I am at my town job. It doesn’t matter if I’m making dinner for my family in a hoodie or if I’m wearing a cocktail dress dining with state representatives. At the end of the day I’m still the same woman. I’m still a princess in the King’s high court. I can be eating steak and potatoes at the café in the sale barn with a bunch of old, rough, weathered cowboys and at the same time, the Lord is summoning me to fine dining at His banqueting table. I LOVE that! Without finding my identity in my Creator, I am nothing but a mixed up girl who doesn’t really know what she wants. Yet if I choose to let Him adorn me with His presence, I can do all of those things (as Craig Morgan puts it, "a slice of the country and Fifth Avenue":)) and still be exactly who He created me to be…His bride.
I really can’t imagine it getting any more exciting. If that doesn’t make you want to dance with Him I don’t know what will. Women try so hard to be ‘something’, to be beautiful, to be loved. They strive for it more than anything else. But without putting on the garments of Christ, our striving is in vain.
Now a few of you have heard me talk about ‘mystery’:). It is something that every woman possesses. What a gift from God! However not ever woman uses it correctly and most abuse it terribly. Mystery is that beauty that is hidden and cultivated for our one and only. It is hidden in the very deepest part of our heart and the only way to unlock it is through love and adoration. When we let God work in us and build our character, we are letting Him add to that. But if we try to do things in our own strength and try to ‘be better’ without the Lord’s leading, we are doomed as are the poor men who are then left to figure us out! Mystery without cultivation becomes confusion. I really don’t think we were meant to be read like a book. What excitement is there in that? God uses so many things to draw us to His face. The only way true mystery can be maintained is through trusting the Father and the only way a man can receive that is by romancing and caring for his bride which He learns by searching for the Father’s heart. That is why nothing brings glory to the Father like a God ordained marriage.
Men need a battle to fight, woman need to feel ‘needed’ in the battle, to help and support their man. Men have to LIVE adventure and woman need to be apart, ‘come with you’ on the journey. Men desire a beauty to rescue and a woman strives to have a beauty worth unveiling. Wow…God is so amazing!
He doesn’t want us to settle on ‘good’. He doesn’t want us to settle on ‘nice’. This is so prevalent in our culture today. This amazing God originated process has been abused and reduced to girls having no value of their worth and flaunting whatever mystery they had in hopes to lure a man who MIGHT love her. In turn, a man can’t be expected to respect a woman who doesn’t respect herself. Women become cattle, notches in the belt, and means to an end of self gratification.
If they only knew…
If they only knew how much our Father loves them and delights in our presence! How have we come this far? More importantly, how are we going to reverse the cycle? This alone makes my stand for righteousness and purity worth it. Not only will I reap the benefits of God’s highest but perhaps it would bring hope to those who are lost. Oh I pray!!!
Like I said before, it doesn’t matter who is around me or what I wear, at the end of the day I know that I am a daughter of the King and THAT is more than enough...
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Worth the process...Year in review
It's about time I write another post, 'eh? I have been in such a reflective mood lately and wanting to write but just haven't quite been able to articulate it enough to put into words. I had been thinking about doing a 'year in review' and after seeing that Morgan did one I'm inspired:) Here ya' go....
The year didn't exactly start off on the right foot for me spiritually. I was in a rebellion, was careless with all of my relationships, and would try to convince you till I was blue in the face that "my relationship with God is just fine!" ( I was so full of it!) Being raised in a Christian home, being home schooled, and having my only friends be from the church gave me a REALLY good idea on how I was supposed to act, what I was supposed to say, etc...I could rattle off anything you wanted me to say about the Lord and His principles without thinking. I was numb to it and didn't have heart behind what I was saying. In every area of my life I was saying one thing and doing another. My relationship with my family (especially with my sister) suffered, and I had pretty much quit pursuing the Father. I became really good at keeping up my 'good girl' exterior but my heart was pretty much rotting. As my mom puts it, I was deceitfully wicked:). This season of stupidity and self-gratification lasted about 3 months (January-March). God used a few people in my life as a wake up call and I fell on my face immediately. I think the strain of wearing a facade wore me down and I eventually broke down. I've gotta admit I felt pretty ugly at the time. For the next couple months I started making more advances and gaining ground, but at a very slow pace. In the midst of this I got a part time job in town working for the NDSU Extension Service as an administrative assistant. I had been working for the dairy and getting bored so I figured adding another 20 hrs of work would help:).
The beginning of April brought with it the best part of the spring, RODEO SEASON!!! The North Dakota Junior High Wrangler Division asked if I would be their official photographer so I jumped at the opportunity. At this time I also started getting a lot closer with my family and spent every spare moment I could with them. Being with them really challenged my relationship with the Lord and I guess you could say this is when I turned my heart back around. As soon as I did the blessings started pouring! They mostly came in the form of my business. Along with shooting for the Wrangler rodeos I took pictures for the High School circuit, Western Edge Bullriders, and started taking senior and family pictures. I had some form of photo shoot
almost every weekend I also took on more jobs at the dairy and was working full time there, while still juggling the office job. Life was CRAZY but I absolutely loved it. At the end of April my entire family took a two week trip to Washington. As it came closer to leaving time it was apparent that things at the farm weren't going to run smoothly without an extra hand and either Dad and I would have to stay. I wasn't going to let Mom take the kids by herself so I stayed and helped run things. Skyler also stayed back to keep me company (and because he didn't want to take a break from his bullriding season). Those two weeks were insanely stressful and I'm pretty sure it was during that time that I became quite positive I never wanted to OWN a dairy myself. LOL. My parents homecoming was such a sweet day (April 30th to be exact:). Oh, and I almost forgot that I had been 'ranch sitting' for a guy during the last couple months as well. A friend bought a ranch 12 miles from us and had cattle there but lived too far away to actually check on them so I went out there every other day to water and check fences, cows, etc... It was so much fun and that's probably when I decided that I like beef cows a lot more and settled on wanting to be a rancher. Haha
May was pretty much I blur, Kortney graduated and I remember her party being a huge deal and spending a LOT of time with that. I also was the photographer for a memorial bull riding. This one meant a lot to me because it was for a dear friend and because I was an arena sponsor. (For those of you who don't know what that is, my business was the 2nd corporate sponsor for this rodeo and they put a banner with my name on it. MAJOR publicity!!!).
June and July were crazy as well, especially at the office because we were preparing for our county fair coming up in August. The last week of July Mom, Sky, and I took a road trip down to Lane, Oklahoma (pert'ner the Texas border). Skyler was attending the Lane Frost Memorial
Bullriding school instructed by World Champion bullrider, Mike Lee. Woah!!! 
We came back and stayed extremely busy all through the county fair in mid-August. It was about his time that Kortney decided to attend MC's and move to Washington so for the last month she was here we immersed ourselves in activities and building our relationship. By the time she left I couldn't even be sad because I was so excited for the adventure she was about to be embark on. 
Being the oldest I have come to realize that I subconsciously carry a burden for each of my siblings. I knew Kortie wasn't a great place before she left and watching her soften her heart was so overwhelming! Ever since then I have had a resounding joy.
We have gone through a lot since she has left but it has been incredible. We have never been closer, I have never been more proud, and I have never loved her as much as I do now. She has become such a display of beauty and radiance of God's glory and I can't help but want to be like her someday! I think our relationship really launched a lot of things in me and I can say that I have never been so hungry or desired intimacy with my Father as I do now. It is beautiful!
Oh yeah, in November I took a trip out yonder to Washington to visit my sister for Thanksgiving and to spend time with my second favorite family ever.:) I have to admit, I was excited for the trip but had no idea what to expect. It far exceeded anything I could have imagined. Kort and I were able to break through and reach such a new level of closeness and open communication. I had such sweet fellowship with the Stevies and left extremely grateful for the connection with their family. Our families have been close for years but it was awesome to reach that on a personal level with them. I just love 'em!
As I look back and think of where I was at the beginning of the year, the process I went through to get where I am at now, I can't even begin to contain my excitement and anticipation for where the Lord is taking me from here. I have learned what pain is. I have learned humility and death to my flesh. I have learned what healing and forgiveness is. I have experienced His redeeming grace. I have learned how to prioritize. I have learned that my family is irreplaceable. I have learned to trust my dad and give him all of my heart. I have learned how to dance with my Father. I have felt what it is like to burn with desire. I have learned to let go of my dreams, in order that He may give me His. I have learned to love...but most of all I have learned to be loved by my Daddy...Can it get any better that that? 
I know He has a huge calling on my life and won't allow me to settle on 'ordinary'. I am meant to be set apart, a standard barer to all those around me. I have the choice to look at my sin and be discouraged and regretful or to thank God for His grace and love. His grace is sufficient for me! The victory has been won and I am not to be condemned!!! In turn, I believe that He wants me to use my testimony as a direct example of His goodness. That is exactly what I intend to do.So what are my 'goals' this year? To die to myself, put on beauty and grace, and let myself be a vessel to be used for His purposes alone....That His glory and love would shine so brightly, it would bring promise and hope to those around me. That should keep me busy for a while!
